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I wrote A Strong, Brave and Noble Man in June 2005. Below the horizontal line, I have left the page untouched as an epitaph to Devin because sadly, this is the e-mail I received from his mother, Barbara, in February 2006: "Allen, Just a thank you again for giving Devin's writing's a chance to be published. The poem I had written for Devin in June of 2005 was one of the best decisions I have made. Devin went into in-home hospice care after Thanksgiving 2005 and died February 3, 2006. I would like you to read his last two poems that he wrote. The one titled Worthwhile was read at his funeral just as he requested. It gives some insight of what a remarkable man I had the privilege to raise. The hospice company has asked my permission to print his poem "He Already Paid" on their thank you notes as a memory to him. So he did get published. :-) Thank you for touching our lives. Barbara Joy" WorthwhileBy Devin Joy September 11, 2003 A wish is a moment not yet madeTo chance, like dice you roll And if the numbers fall just right A moment will touch your soul
One moment, to me, a thousand fold Somehow it helps to know To know at least a drop of love And hope to make it grow
One word can heal a thousand scars The word of love in hand For every breath, a gift from God A chance to make a stand
So much talk of chance and luck With no due credit to Thee The hand of fate is the hand of God Not chance, but destiny
He Already Paid By Devin L. Joy January 14, 2006
Should we live out our time In pursuit of ourselves?
Should we seek the sublime, Moving further from truth, The deeper we delve?
Our pursuit has been made, The sublime has been sought, Through the blood of the Lamb, Our way has been bought.
By His design, this world is the test, For justice to be allotted And salvation to be blessed.
Through unending dilemmas, Alone we can’t last. So true on His rock, Should we ever stand fast.
God Bless A Strong, Brave and Noble Man
Barbara's son, Devin, suffers from a muscle wasting disease (Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy). As Barbara told me in her request:
"Each morning when I go to his room to get him ready for the day I'm blessed to be able to wake him up. He has told me several times that he prays to God that he will go to sleep some night and not wake up."
Barbara and Devin have kindly given their permission for their poem and story to be published.
A Strong, Brave and Noble Man
What is your name :
Barbara Joy
A Strong, Brave and Noble Man
Some people get to live out a
full life,
some people get their three score
and ten,
but often, they can end up old
and disillusioned,
sometimes, they can end up really
bitter old men.
And then there are others who are
quite cowardly,
they stay safe from harm, in
their protective shell,
some never find their true
greatness, their true potential,
patience, I'm going somewhere
with this, can you tell?
Because some people go through
life not being loved,
and that's got to be the greatest
pain of all,
but then others, get to leave
this planet early,
and when it comes, you just can't
ignore God's call.
And so it will be for you,
my wonderful son,
God needs your beautiful mind,
spirit and soul,
and to be honest, I know He's got
greater plans,
as you've already starred in your
earthly role.
You see, you could not be any
more loved,
and to have shared you, I know
that I've been blessed,
and of all the sons that I could
have chosen,
I know I'm lucky, because I chose
two of the very best.
You're such an intelligent, fine
young man,
you have the soul of a poet, but
then some more,
and Devin, I just wanted to say
"I love you",
I guess that's what these words
are really for.
But there's so much more that I
need to say,
because you've made my world a
great place to be,
and although I love you with all
my heart,
I wish I'd never heard of
Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy.
But they say that all things
happen for a reason,
and no, that doesn't mean that
you've been bad,
it just means that God planned a
different path for you,
to take you on a journey that
many have never had.
Maybe it's for you to create a
different perspective,
to see the world through a new,
but understanding set of eyes,
and I'm sure that great things
are planned for you,
and when that happens, it will
come as no surprise.
Because I know you love your
science fiction,
and your beautiful poetry is a
Joy to behold,
I know, the teacher was
right, your name will be in print one day,
because Devin, yours is an
epic that must be told.
I do hope you can get your novel
finished,
maybe you could finish just one
story at a time?
Just know, whatever happens, I'm
so proud of you,
you've helped put the reason in
my rhyme.
And I don't think it's a Figment
of my imagination,
but sometimes in life, you can
smell like sour cream,
but then again, some things are
often no accident,
sometimes, it takes great
strength to live out your dream.
I used to think the most
important muscle we have is our heart,
but now I've changed my mind,
because it's the human spirit,
I know it's so hard for you (and
your prayers will be answered),
but just for now, choose life,
Devin, this is yours (and be in it).
Because the world would love to
see your novel finished,
have you ever wondered why you've
had an extended stay?
I also know you keep a positive
attitude most of the time,
but that one line still leaves so
much to say:
Because I think we take too many
things for granted in our lives,
our precious time on this Earth
and our daily bread,
and I know I'm as guilty as
anyone, we're all too busy,
but I know that "I love you" are
words that need to be said.
If we need a hug from our
children, just go ahead and ask them,
because one day, sadly, it'll be
just too darn late,
so not holding back, Devin, can I
please have a hug?
And now there's just one last
thing I'd like to state:
Devin, I know that we don't have
many tomorrows left,
and I know, unlike my words, my
tears just won't dry,
so I wanted to say: "Devin, I'm
so very proud of you",
or at least, I wanted to give it
my very best try.
Not only are you my son, you are
my friend,
and truly, you've been a really
great friend, indeed,
and you've already given me so
much in this life,
in truth, more love and wisdom
than I'll ever need.
We've laughed together, we've
cried together,
if you want proof, just look at
the pair of us now,
we've talked about life, we've
talked about death,
and Devin, I promise, we'll get
through this, somehow.
I know you worry about me, but we
all get stressed and tired,
and I promise I'll take care of
you as long as I possibly can,
because God gave me two truly
wonderful boys,
and you grew up to be such a
strong, brave and noble man.
Copyright Allen Jesson :) 2005
"You did a beautiful job on Devin's
poem. I knew you would."
"Allen, today Devin and I had a lovely lunch with my sister and I presented his poem to him. There was no other way to give it to him but to read it myself. I read the poem about 3 times before today, but was unable to read it today without reading through tears. Devin told me later in the day that he made himself fight back tears. That says a lot for your poem because he doesn't show emotions easily. After I read Devin's poem I explained to him what you offered to do concerning the poem he wrote to me and the two chapters of his book. His face lit up and he couldn't believe you would actually do that for him. He says to let you know he appreciates it very much. He also said you can use his real name on your website for the poem "A Strong, Brave and Noble Man." Attached are the first two chapters of his novel. Thank you for being so kind. Barbara" Please find attached Devin's work, I think it's worthy of a wider audience... Do you know of a publisher who could publish Devin's work? If you do, please get in touch with Barbara at (please replace AT with @ in your e-mail). Thank you.
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